Sabotage

Sabotage.  I do it to myself all.the.time.  I don’t know why.

Take yesterday for instance.  I did the Shred.  Felt awesome all day.  Ate an excellent breakfast and lunch.  And then came dinner.  My husband was dying for fried fish.  Ok, no big deal.  It was catfish; I don’t like catfish.  So I was safe from that.  And I make the worlds worst hushpuppies…so they were avoidable too.  But.  What else do I have to have with fish?  Cheese grits and cole slaw.  I had to.  There is no sane reason other than: that’s how my family has always done it so that’s what I was going to do.  Now.  If I could have controlled myself there should have been no problem.  Right? Right.

Three servings of grits, two (lackluster) hushpuppies, one serving of cole slaw later…I felt guilty.  I shouldn’t have.  But I did.  And that lead to…two chocolate chip cookies…which lead to a late night snack of a bowl of leftover grits.

Agh.  I know it’s normal to fall back…but I feel like I fall back too much.  I’m too easily swayed into “well, you already did bad…might as well just go for it and start over tomorrow.”   I’m so tired of “starting over.”

If I fall back, there’s no sense in totally effing up the whole day.  Just pick up right at that minute and go forward.

Today’s a new day.  No sabotage.

P.S. I just finished day 2 of The Shred.  Less breaks this time!

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Revisiting Jillian

Do you guys remember this? I could only do 9 minutes of The Shred.  Well, I’ve been watching The Biggest Loser and I gotta tell you, it has truly inspired me again.  I know it’s not realistic for me to lose 15 lbs a week, but I can certainly kick my own ass.  And that got me to thinking about having my ass kicked and Jillian and The Shred certainly did that.  And I’ve been working out pretty good the past several months.  So I pulled that DVD out.  And I started it.  And I wanted to quit.  But I didn’t.  I FINISHED it!  Now, I’m not going to lie-I took a few small breaks, but I did.not.quit.  I’m contemplating doing it again tonight.  Am I nuts?

Avoidance

I have this thing.  It’s like, ignore it and it will go away.  Which is almost never true.  Especially when it comes to weight loss.

Needless to say, I didn’t lose anything this week.  I gained .2 lbs.  Which is basically nothing.  So I’m not fussing over that.  But I didn’t even want to blog about it.  Because if I don’t own up to it, then it must not have happened.

I’m totally this way when it comes to logging my calories.  And really, who am I hurting?  There’s no one looking at it but me.  So why am I trying to hide things from myself?  I need to learn to…avoid avoidance, lol.

With my kids and husband being home, it’s really throwing off my exercise routines.  I’m so uncomfortable flailing all over the living room with all of them around.  And it’s really hard to find 45 minutes to myself during the day with all of them sitting here looking at me.  But, the boys are going to summer school in a few days, so I’ll be able to slip back into my routine again.

Alright, time for bed.

Mosquito’s and Tae Bo

I was just outside…and I got bit like 5 times.  Ugh.  Hello, summer.  It was so humid today, but as long as I sat perfectly still in the shade, it wasn’t too bad.

I found my old Tae Bo DVD’s.  I forgot how intensely hard they were! I did 30 minutes yesterday and 20 tonight.  I’m so sweaty!

Weigh in is tomorrow, I’m so excited to go! Who would have thought I’d ever say that?  I missed a couple workouts but I think I’ve done pretty good this week, so I’m excited to see how I did.  I want to hit 30 lbs soon!

Hope everyone had a great weekend!

Trigger Foods

Do you have a trigger food?  I have many.  But sometimes I’m surprised at some of them.  Take tonight for instance.  I had some salad leftover from lunch so that’s what I was going to eat for dinner and my husband has been bugging me to make him polish sausage and mashed potatoes for dinner.  Now, I love this meal.  But I really didn’t think much of it when I was cooking it.  I knew I was going to eat my salad and have one small piece of sausage and a small scoop of potatoes.  No big deal.  And that’s just what I did.   So just now I’m cleaning up the kitchen and that sausage…oh my…it hit me.  I wanted it and I wanted it all.  I wanted to stuff my face with it.  I almost walked away from it…but I didn’t.  I hurried up and put it in a tupperware dish and put it up because I knew that if I walked away, it’d be sitting there in 10 minutes when I came back and it’d hit me again.

Trigger foods – 0, Kelly -1

Go me.

As I mentioned in my previous post, I’ve been catching up on back episodes of this season’s Biggest Loser and I was watching that while I ate dinner and now I’m going to exercise.  I definitely think that watching the show is a good motivator for exercising.

The Biggest Loser

Do you guys watch The Biggest Loser?  I love it and I hate it at the same time.  One of the things I love about it is that it shows that there are so many people doing the same thing that I am and it truly inspires me.

But what I hate about it?  The monster losses that the contestants have.  9-12 lbs a week?  Seriously?  I’ve caught several professionals saying that not only is this not a good thing for your body, but it sets you up for feeling like a failure (when you only have like a 2 lb loss, which we all know is quite an accomplishment) and also for having the tendency for gaining the weight back.

Sure, we’d all love to lose 10 lbs in one week.  I’d be finished with this journey in a little over two months.  That would be fabulous.  But I personally don’t think it’s realistic.  I wonder how many of these people have gained the weight back once they get home and back to where they can’t work out for 4 hours a day.

It’s Monday!

I weighed in and I’m super proud of myself!  I lost 1.6 lbs, putting me at 25.6 lbs.  I feel great.

And yay! I figured out how to enter all my previous weights into My Fitness Pal!

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